Lately I just can't seem to wake up, I don't feel like I've slept at all. My main problem is I can't sleep. My brain justkeeps buzzing, dark thoughts that wont let me sleep. When I do manage to get to sleep it's nowhere near the amount I need. My alarm goes off and I snooze it as much as I possibly can, even if its just for 2 minutes longer I keep snoozing my alarm.
My body aches and my mind gets fuzzy. Today I got stuck on the simplest simplest of tasks and I just couldn't get my head around it. I tried having bubble baths but I slept like a baby but couldn't wake up in the morning.I tried going to sleep earlier and getting into bed and waiting to fall asleep, instead it frustrated me more because I spent hours lying in bed getting annoyed at myself for not falling asleep.
Tonight I plan to watch Dallas, plan my outfit so its ready for the morning on my chair and then read a book in bed hoping I fall asleep.
Tomorrow is the range presentation for the AW12 Christmas range. Every year a celeb makes their appearance and theres a catwalks with all the clothes. That adds a little bit of glitz and glam to it all. Everyone is running around like crazy trying to get things ready in time the office has beenredecorated for the after party. I'm hoping to make a bit of an effort for the occasion.Im thinking lace on leather bit of a smoky eye makeup and possibly pull out the high heel boots.
Wish me luck, hopefully I can fall asleep and get the beauty sleep I need to look glamorous for the catwalk show.
Lots of love
MLP
Sleepless nights have become the norm for me. I can't switch off my brain long enough to fall asleep, I'm plagued with thoughts that haunt me.
It's almost 1 in the morning here, my eyes are burning and my head hurts but even if I go to bed now, I won't sleep. My mind goes round and round in circles and often finds itself in a deep and dark corner in the recesses of my brain.
My stomach isn't exactly helping the situation at all. All day I've been having sharp pains, like a cramping that makes me wince and leaves me breathless. If the pain doesn't go away I'm going to have to go to the doctors...something I'm dreading already.
So here I am wide awake with nothing to distract me from the pain. Sleep escapes me. Hopefully the pain subsides and I manage to get some rest. After such a busy day sleep would be amazing right now.It's not all bad..since I'm awake I guess I can atleast catch up on some TV.
Lots of love
MLP
My need to escape increases more and more everyday...
I just want to escape and I don't want to think anymore...
In every spare moment of my time I'm listening to music or watching tv or asleep. When I'm watching a film, for that brief moment I escape.
For a few hours I'm not here. I don't feel sad, I don't feel lost and I'm not drowning.
Going to the cinema helps me escape, and maybe in time I will reach a point in life where I won't need to escape anymore.
Lots of love
MLP
